The Loss of Joy

Precious babies and newborn animals bring joy to so many. Painting, photography, sculpting, gardening, mountain climbing and cooking are also ways that people experience joy. When you suffer a loss and it snuffs the joy out of your life, it’s difficult to put a smile on your face.

Death, divorce, and other painful transitions, including the ending of a relationship with a parent, sibling, child or friend are experiences that may leave one feeling abandoned, rejected, and unloved. Any one of these losses or endings takes time to reconcile and it is in the reconciling that we can begin to connect with joy again.

Here are some suggestions to help you reconnect with joy:

1. Watch a funny movie or television show – no greater story than that of Patch Adams, a doctor who infused humour into his work with gravely ill children, demonstrates how laughter can lighten the burden on your heart. It’s okay to laugh after loss. You are not being disrespectful and it actually has positive benefits for your health.
2. Take time to smell the flowers – I know that sounds very cliché, but it really is about allowing yourself to just stop, breath and take in the beauty around you. Look at the magnificence of this world and take in its wonder and know you are part of the beauty that abounds.
3. Go out of your way to help someone else – this too may sound simplistic, but it works. Visit the elderly, listen to their stories, and watch the joy in their faces as you take interest. It will lighten your mood and both of you will part feeling that you matter.
4. Play like a kid – all of us know someone who has a child or children that we can spend time with if we don’t have our own. Children live in the moment. They find great joy in seeking out small bugs, chasing garden snakes, finger painting, skipping through mud puddles or having a story read to them. Be a kid for day with them… I guarantee you will have a new perspective.
5. Allow the joy into your life – this is a hard one, but the most necessary. We have to allow the experience of joy back into our life again. Pick up the camera, the paintbrush or your old guitar… just allow yourself to feel the happiness  that the gifts you have can bring to you and others.
6. Start loving yourself today and purposefully smile in the mirror. Someone will be smiling back at you.

Ten Choices to Make When Life Feels Stuck!

1.  Choose your feelings

We have the right to choose our feelings and which of those feelings will take our attention. Acknowledge, name, and observe.

2.  Choose forgiveness for others and yourself

Learning to forgive does not mean  “It’s okay what you did to me” or  “I have no right to be angry.” You forgive the person, not the action.  In forgiving you are         taking the power and declaring, “I will not be a vessel for this ill feeling any longer.  I will not carry this anger in response to your actions.”  We must also learn to forgive ourselves for past mistakes. “We don’t make mistakes -- we make experiences!”

3.  Choose to let go of anger and resentment

It’s natural to feel anger and even resentment at times.  However, it’s not natural to carry those feelings around and it stops our lives cold when we do.  We must acknowledge the anger, give it a name, let it go, and move forward.  By holding on to these dark issues we give it power and control. Letting go takes back the control and opens your heart and soul to receive.

4.  Choose the present moment opposed to the past or future

The present moment is all we have.  Everything else (even as you read this) is one second in the past and one second in the future.  By focusing on what happened to you in the past means you remain living in the past.  By anticipating what will happen to you in the future,      you are grasping at what may or may not happen. By learning to be present in the moment, you begin to experience life more fully and see the beauty around you.

5.  Choose your thoughts to direct your life

This teaches the Universal Law of Attraction i.e: like attracts like; positive attracts positive.  If you put out positive thoughts you attract positive situations, people, and opportunity.

6.  Choose your soulful self over your physical self

The soul remains intact regardless of what happens to our physical bodies.  The blood and flesh are mere packaging.  No matter what circumstances we endure, the essence of who we are remains intact. You can choose to reclaim that essence. Don’t let your physical capabilities or deficits define who you are!

7.  Choose where you hold your power

Learn to center your energy on your inner self, and be mindfully aware of where you put your attention. Choose positive energy over negative energy.  Learn to let go of situations and people if it is not for your higher good.

8.  Choose to trust your inner self and create balance in life

We hold all the answers within to resolve situations, create what we want, and manifest what we need. We need to pay more attention to information, feelings, and the intuition that comes to us when we have asked for help.  Usually we aren’t listening. Learn to follow your instincts with confidence.               

9.  Choose to expect and receive abundance, prosperity and happiness

Once we are in balance, we can expect to have all our needs met.  We are worthy of              having abundance of love, money, happiness.  We must ask for what we need and want            and then be sure we do not sabotage our requests with negative thinking (fear based    emotions.)

10. Choose to discover your life purpose

We come to earth with a purpose; this life purpose is different for everyone. It can be from being a gardener to being famous. Often circumstances (tragedy) will move us to find this purpose. We must ask, trust, and follow.  When you find it -- you will know it. You feel  it.  Living our life purpose brings us joy and harmony! 



Brain Injury and Grief ~ Fact or Fiction?

There are many experiences in life that cause us to grieve. Generally, we think grief results from someone’s death. Certainly, death is a cause for grief; however, it is not the only way to experience loss. Divorce, separation, transitional losses (e.g. moving to a new community), and developmental losses (e.g. children leaving home) are also ways in which we can experience loss. In addition, chronic illness (Alzheimer's or Parkinson's disease) and catastrophic injuries (brain injury) cause loss too.

The grief journey is complex. It feels like a lonely path; nobody understands what you are going through. That is true. No one can truly understand how another person feels; however, those who have walked this journey never forget what they felt or experienced. They can be a tremendous source of strength and courage to you.

Understanding the grief journey and its connection with brain injury is important. It’s important because if you do not acknowledge the losses that arise from having a brain injury, it will be difficult – if not impossible – to move forward in life. This is true for the person who is living with the outcome of a brain injury and it is true for those in relationship with them (i.e. spouse, children, family and friends).

Think about the life losses that have you have experienced, including brain injury. Do you feel that you were able to fully acknowledge the grief that resulted from your loss?

                                 

Journaling Helps to Heal Your Heart

Keeping a journal has many benefits. The most obvious is that it is a way to record time, keep track of accomplishments, disappointments and transformations. The added benefits are very therapeutic. For example, keeping a journal to record your feelings and thoughts provides the writer with a safe, non-judgemental place to work through what is going on for them. Here are some basic guidelines for journaling that will help you or someone you know to get started:

ü  The journal is private property and unless the invitation is extended, it is for the writer’s eyes only.

ü  Include a statement like the following in the front of the journal: This journal is a record of my private thoughts. It is not intended to hurt anyone. It is intended to help me heal. Please respect my privacy and do not read.

ü  Pace yourself when writing about deep emotional pain. Do this by giving yourself permission to stop at the end of a page or two pages. Fold the page over from the outside to the binding to indicate to you that this was painful piece of work and you may not want to read it again.

ü  Do not judge while writing in a journal. Do not worry about grammar, spelling or punctuation. This is a place to safely tuck your innermost thoughts and feelings. Getting hung up on the “mechanics of writing” will interfere with the process.

ü  Use different coloured pens and pencils for added flair.

ü  Draw pictures or glue photos/images and words into the journal.

ü  Set aside private time to write in your journal. Ask to not be disturbed. Turn off the phone or go someplace very quiet and serene.

ü  After you finish journaling, take time to ease back into your daily routine. Sip hot tea, take a bath, or go for a brisk walk.

Grief is like Peeling an Onion

The grief journey is like peeling an onion ~ there are layers and layers to the loss and there are a lot of tears!

Tears have long been misinterpreted as a sign of weakness. We all know males who were told from a young age, “Big boys don’t cry.” For women, while it is more acceptable for us to weep, the acceptance is often couched in labels such as: “high strung, over-emotional, drama-queens, or hysterical.” It’s all bunk. Yes, there is no doubt that some people can take it to the extreme ~for both men and women~ but generally tears are a natural way to shed stress and feelings of sorrow.

There are times when we can’t put our feelings into words. Crying is a perfectly healthy way to release those emotions. Other times the heartbreaking reality of what is happening is so overwhelming that the body has to do something to let go of the pain. Isn’t it far better to go through a box of Kleenex than to inch yourself towards a heart attack or other physical response? I think so.

You may have encountered someone who responded to your tears with statements like: “Don’t cry.” “It’s okay.” “It’s not that bad.” “It’s not worth crying over.” Here is the truth why these people attempt to close the flood gates for others ~ they have not got the ability to be present to pain. Their efforts to stop the tears are about them… not the person who is crying.

So how do you convey support to someone who is distraught? Simply be present and allow them to feel what they need to feel for however long they need to feel it. Don’t attempt to suppress their tears. It’s okay, and loving, to gently place a hand on their shoulder, arm or leg to let them know that you are there and will be there for however long it takes.

Moreover, remember this: People can die from a broken heart ~ no one has died from crying.

Fifty Handpicked Souls

While the mother of a mother is often considered “older than Christmas” by youngsters, there is no denying that grandmas are the best cookie-makers, huggers, and cheerleaders. They overlook our flaws and exaggerate our accomplishments. Grandmas always have the right answer and they can negotiate privileges or requests on behalf of a grandchild with tremendous success.  My mother was one of them.

My mother, a grandmother to twenty-three young men and women, was the epitome of “wise.”  In fact, her grandchildren referred to her as the “walking encyclopaedia.”  When it came to doing homework, more often than not, the kids would call grandma for the answer before they would consider researching on the Internet or looking in a book.  Mom was an avid reader and kept herself informed of worldly events.  She understood politics, religion, the environment, and had an uncanny appreciation for the music of Alice Cooper.  Her greatest joy was her family and whenever possible she imparted the lessons of life to her children and her grandchildren.  This was never more evident than in her final days.

As it would be for any family, the approaching death of our mother was frightening and overwhelming.  We also realized that the advance knowledge of her death gave us a rare gift – the opportunity to have loving, heartfelt conversations that prepared us for her departure and allowed us to say thank you for all she had done.  We seized the opportunity and we encouraged her grandchildren to do the same.  There were tears, laughter, memories shared, and memories made. 

In the final week of Mom’s life, we began to schedule “private time” for each one of her children and each one of her grandchildren.  A few of the grandchildren are married, the majority were single and in their 20s, and a few were teens and preteens.  We left it up to our kids if they wanted to go together to talk with Grandma or they could go alone.  As their parents, while we wanted to protect them from the hurt, we made the decision for them to go without us.  We wanted their private time with Grandma to be special and not overshadowed by our feelings of sadness.

In her true spirit of loving and teaching, Mom bestowed each one of the grandchildren with a gift of words – something they could carry with them the rest of their lives.  Each message was different and given spontaneously in her conversations with them.  She articulated her philosophies to them about love, life, and having faith that we would meet again on the other side.  Of all the insight she offered, the most profound statement came in her discussions with my two daughters.    

Mom was explaining to the girls that she was sad she would not be here to see them have children.  Through tears, Dale suggested that Grandma could probably pick their children out for them when she got to heaven.  Myriah joined her sister in giggling and wiping away her share of the tears.  My mother paused briefly, and then reverently stated that she indeed would make it her mission while in heaven to choose babies for her grandchildren – she expected that a total of 50 precious souls would be needed to carry on her legacy. 

Time has passed quickly in the eight years since we said good-bye to Mom.  Each of us holds her memory close and remembers the lessons she taught, knowing that her love and wisdom transcends time and space.  More importantly, we are enjoying sharing life with some of those handpicked souls and look forward to her sending us more!

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Don’t Expect to Get Over Grief

You’ve heard the saying – “You can do this the easy way or you can do it the hard way!”  But what if the task at hand, such as grief, is already hard? There is no easy way to grieve. It is a long and difficult journey.  However, in my opinion, we make the journey longer and more difficult by not engaging in the process. 

Naturally, we want to avoid or move away from painful situations.  Unfortunately, we live in a society that supports moving away from the pain. Everything is a quick fix…fast e-mail, fast food, instant messaging and on and on… so it’s easy to expect people to “heal fast” and “get back to normal” so that they are fun for others to be around again.  People are expected to get over what has happened and to do it in a timely fashion. For those of us who have embarked on the journey of loss, we can tell you it is not that easy. 

It is said that “time heals all.” That is not true, especially for the bereaved.  We don’t get over our grief and we don’t “fix” a broken heart. We heal a broken heart by taking all the time we need to feel, remember and acknowledge the reality of our loss. We integrate the loss into our life and then we move forward. By working through the process and taking the time we need, we eventually renew our capacity to love, laugh, and plan for the future. There is no way to the other side of grief except to go through it.  Take time to heal – for however long that takes! You are worth it!